I've been starting off slow the last couple days. I've been so unmotivated, perhaps it's the foot of snow outside, or that our house doesn't get much above 65 degrees inside. I have planned out a menu for the rest of the week though. Tonight is Potato Leek Soup, which I've lightened up by fat free evaporated milk. Here's a link to the recipe. It's the perfect cold, crappy weather soup to warm you up. Mmmm
Tomorrow I'll be making a pizza from scratch with mushrooms and The Piggery Cranberry Sage sausage. I bought a share of their winter CSA, so we've been getting pork in all of it's glorious forms once a week for the past couple weeks. The recipe that I linked to is mostly just my guide to making for making the dough. There is nothing better than homemade pizza, and you will never go back to using a pre-made dough or bobouli (eww). The pizza should hold all of use over for at least two days, or that's the plan anyway.
After pizza night(s), it's fajita night. I really, REALLY dislike those premade fajita kits. It's just 12 different kinds of salt made to taste sortof mexicany... Yeah, you can do better with some cayenne pepper, garlic and other seasonings that you like, without all the salt and eww. I think I've decided on chicken fajitas, with some homemade guacamole and some tasty fresh salsa. It's all about the toppings, the rest is just filling. I"m hopeing to make enough of these to last a couple days. So that's 5 days already, with 3 meals.
We got some great fresh ground beef from the farmers market a couple weeks ago and are still thinking of what to make with it. What ever it ends up in, it'll be great.
Ah, so, now that that's done, I guess I could write about how I"ve been feeling. I could sum it up pretty simply as drained. Really, overly drained. I'm sure the weather has something to do with it, but it's probably more that Brandon has left, again. I know it's his job, but it sucks none the less.
I'm hoping that I get over this pretty quickly, since school is starting in a couple weeks and I have hockey tonight. I am so ridiculously out of shape. That's part of what's making me miserable as well. I have no one to blame on that one but me. If I can keep at this, I know I can make the change that I need to make. Ugg, why does being responsible suck so much. Stupid adulthood.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
New Year
This being a new year, it is only fitting that I have new goals and a new outlook. Like a new year is the panacea to all of my troubles. I will try my damnedest this year to be healthier, because being fat sucks... a lot. I've also decided that since I am unemployed, I might as well pour all of my efforts into school. Last semester, I was only able to attain a 3.75 GPA. This is good, but I can do better.
All of this positive thinking is going to my head, ekk, who knows, it may actually lead to a better quality of life. I do love being apathetic, but it hasn't gotten me anywhere. I've spent so many years being so pissed off and saying I don't care about anything, but I've found that it just hurts me, rather than shield me from my real problems. Ah, my real problems. There is something new and exciting to talk about. Depression tops my list, as does using food to comfort myself. It's a vicious cycle, and it sucks.
I've always had this attitude that I am too good to do things, and this anything that's hard isn't worth doing. That attitude sucks. Now if only I can convince myself that I can stick with this and work toward a positive change in my life.
I think one of the greatest things that will help me this year is being able to post how I'm feeling, and what I'm doing about it. The ups and downs of daily life and how I cope. I also want to start writing down all the recipes that are helping me along the way. I figure since food is my comfort, I may as well make great food to keep me going. I do have my vices as everyone does, and I don't know that I will be able to give up bacon or pasta, but I will try my hardest to use them wisely, and in a way that will further my health.
Here's to a new year, and a more positive, healthy me.
On another note, I got rid of Facebook this morning. It was to the point where I had 400+ "friends" and perhaps 5 people that I talked to on a daily basis. Those other people just had access to my life in a way that I just wasn't comfortable with. Think about it, these people that you haven't talked to in years, suddenly reemerging in your life, able to see you happiest moments in pictures, and read you status updates, letting them know what's going on in your life in a moment by moment update. Who are these people though? I could tell you there names, maybe where they went to college, but I had no real connection to them. These people were just a name and a face on a screen, they have no impact on my life, so it just makes sense to me to eliminate them from my life. They serve no purpose but to make me feel that I have not accomplished enough in my life. Comparing myself to people who have traveled to Africa and feed orphans and taught impoverished children how to read... That's a hell of a life to measure up to, so I stopped.
Well, here's to Day 1. Now, off to the movies with the parents, then perhaps out to dinner.
All of this positive thinking is going to my head, ekk, who knows, it may actually lead to a better quality of life. I do love being apathetic, but it hasn't gotten me anywhere. I've spent so many years being so pissed off and saying I don't care about anything, but I've found that it just hurts me, rather than shield me from my real problems. Ah, my real problems. There is something new and exciting to talk about. Depression tops my list, as does using food to comfort myself. It's a vicious cycle, and it sucks.
I've always had this attitude that I am too good to do things, and this anything that's hard isn't worth doing. That attitude sucks. Now if only I can convince myself that I can stick with this and work toward a positive change in my life.
I think one of the greatest things that will help me this year is being able to post how I'm feeling, and what I'm doing about it. The ups and downs of daily life and how I cope. I also want to start writing down all the recipes that are helping me along the way. I figure since food is my comfort, I may as well make great food to keep me going. I do have my vices as everyone does, and I don't know that I will be able to give up bacon or pasta, but I will try my hardest to use them wisely, and in a way that will further my health.
Here's to a new year, and a more positive, healthy me.
On another note, I got rid of Facebook this morning. It was to the point where I had 400+ "friends" and perhaps 5 people that I talked to on a daily basis. Those other people just had access to my life in a way that I just wasn't comfortable with. Think about it, these people that you haven't talked to in years, suddenly reemerging in your life, able to see you happiest moments in pictures, and read you status updates, letting them know what's going on in your life in a moment by moment update. Who are these people though? I could tell you there names, maybe where they went to college, but I had no real connection to them. These people were just a name and a face on a screen, they have no impact on my life, so it just makes sense to me to eliminate them from my life. They serve no purpose but to make me feel that I have not accomplished enough in my life. Comparing myself to people who have traveled to Africa and feed orphans and taught impoverished children how to read... That's a hell of a life to measure up to, so I stopped.
Well, here's to Day 1. Now, off to the movies with the parents, then perhaps out to dinner.
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